Dark and Fragile Heart!

Does your heart feel as though it will shatter into a thousand pieces at the next eruption attempting to reveal its dark and fragile trenches? Do you ever get frustrated with yourself because you are still plagued by the very demons you thought you conquered? It can be extremely frustrating and disheartening, and at times you feel you will not make it out alive without life altering battle wounds!

I think if I can say one thing to help it would be… the key here is to be patient with ourselves and know that life is a journey. We will have our ups and downs, and often we will experience those ups and downs many times in one day! The process of living aware and healing requires daily work. The most important thing is to have faith in the big picture. We are exactly where we are meant to be at any given moment, and it’s crucial to surround ourselves with others who help us safely explore and respect our fragility so that we may heal and become stronger!!!

Does the universe test us daily to make sure we have truly learned from our demons? I am finding this to be the case in my own life. When I feel cocky about something I thought I dealt with, the universe so graciously provides me a situation that elicits an emotional response with lightning speed that leads straight to my eager demons! Is this cruel? Sometimes it feels that way, like the universe is playing a sick, cruel, twisted joke on me to see how strong I really am!

It always seems to arise with something I care so deeply for, but is that not where are demons reside, in the darkness of our heart? In those dark fragile trenches of our heart their mystery simmers, and when something or someone comes along and sheds light to those trenches, well its perfect opportunity to unleash the demons and shed light upon them! I am learning to look at this in a different light, because the thought of these demons constantly haunting me is extremely frightening and saddens me to the very source of my soul!!!

As I write here today, I realize that its not a twisted joke being played on me, its really my shining moment to allow the light to penetrate, so that I may see how strong I have become! Because each and every time the light comes through over the course of my life, an act of healing is being choreographed before my tear filled eyes! The goal is to understand our job is to allow the light to come through every time, no matter how painful and life shattering so that it may hurt less when the next ray of light penetrates!

I will close here with a excerpt from Louise Hay’s book, The Power is Within You. It resonates with me on a very deep level, and I hope it allows you to see the big picture… as long as we continue to open our hearts, especially when we feel we are dealing with a dark and fragile heart, we will grow, become stronger and more vibrant!

Love & Light,
Tanya

My love expands all the time. What I do today is much more than what I was doing six months or a year ago. I know a year from now my conciousness and my heart will have expanded and I will be doing more. I know that what I believe about myself becomes true for me, so I choose to believe wonderful things about myself. There was a time when I didn’t, so I know I have grown, and I continue to work on myself. – Louise Hay